As Phil Collins once sang in his song, “I can't take it anymore, and I won't!"

If you ask me, I think that it's kind of crappy that even in my "sleeping moments”, where my body, soul and mind, are supposedly taking time to rest and repair the damage done daily by the “Buttheads” of the past and present.

I know that there are you haters and nay sayers and egotistical sadistic narcissistic people…who plainly D-GAF what others think or say about you. I am praying that God returns soon and perhaps maybe 🤔 you'll “see the light” before it's too late.

I'm thinking that it would kinda be cool 😎 if there was like a role reversal. I know. Wishful thinking on my part…childlike and naive. Crazy crap like this happens only in books and movies, between “The prince and the Pauper “. It really gives me a sense of pleasure (not guilty but perhaps twisted). To think on how the Aristocrats, the Elite, Posh snobs of this world…would be if they were to be in average “lower working class" shoes? 🤔

You see, I know enough of History to know that no matter what anyone says, WE as a human race have ALWAYS believed that WE are better than ___ (?) I am Not sorry to burst anyone's bubble BUT that is the mentality that IS destroying this beautifully amazingly awesome world that God created.

Okay. So truthfully, I am "no innocent” child, i wish… that i was. I've lived long enough to have “experienced/witnessed” too many fugly things. But on the flip 🙃 side…i am daring you to shake things up.

Start noticing “the beauty" of THIS world. I know that it may sound cliche, however, take time to admire the flowers and be kind to yourself by smelling them. If you happen to be allergic to pollen/bees OR fur (I know that this sucks at times) I hope that you're packing Benadryl and or other means of assistance.

Time here is too short. I'm not telling you to “take arms" against the rich and powerful of THIS world….what I am asking you to do is to praise God and thank him for what he has given Us. To turn to Him and pray for his assistance…for His love and Mercy.

I know that for a lot of people THIS is a hard thing to do. To ask someone to "surrender”, submit , relinquish, give in or over…Truthfully, it has been one of those most difficult things that I have had to face (and on the surface, still do). For us women it has and probably will be until God claims what not ONLY righteously and lawfully by his Word belongs to Him … Sometimes, I passionately will sparr with God my PaPa. I know, in the back of my Cerebral Cortex, that he'll win…however, if I'm honest - I don't care. I like the challenge. God my Papa has taught me that I am… courageous. righteous. Strong. Intelligent. Beautifully made. With more than my fair share of humor, modesty and stubborness. He knows me. From the crown of my head to the soles of my feet. He knows my every waking thought in the morning to my thoughts before sleep. God isn't just good…He IS awesome. I will Never fully understand him in the way that he does me, and ALL that He has created…BUT I am not going to lie to you or anyone else…I am okay with this. I don't need nor want to know. Please PaPa God…I honestly want a “Father" A BLESSED parent, who Is Forever going to “Love" me, for me. And I know, not just believe, that you are, were (now & ALWAYS) will be the Only One who can and will fit that role. You have made it clear that there IS None like You, nor NEVER shall be.

For what it's worth PaPa…I Love you.

😉 I also Like AND Respect you as well 🙏.

Amen.

Today, Sunday June 22nd 2025, at 7:51 p.m. Officer P. left my premises. Earlier I had called the F&M County Sheriff's Office because I had somebody cut my garden hose several times over and tied it into a huge knot. To say that I was upset, would be putting it mildly.

God I looked awful. He must have really thought I looked quite the sight when he arrived. I was talking on my phone with my sister, tears streamed down my face. The worse part was that my nose was running just as fast. Ugh Man…. How pathetic! I think any female who has had been abused or is being abused…You fucking DON'T want to “CRY”! especially in front of people who wear badges, carry guns, tazers, cuffs and…. Yes. I'll admit. I haven't had the best rapport with the law. In fact, I've been cuffed, questioned, patted and “held down / taken from behind “ more than I care to admit. So now when I see ”them” - the law, I revert to being a terrified child. It's sorta like how fucking Stephen King has made people traumatized with clowns! King “almost” single handedly, has helped make people terrified of them AND has made people want to kill them! What an idiot! I Love clowns. They were intended to relieve people of their burden not cause them horror or death.

*Please 🙏 for those of you who are either viewing this for the first time (or not), as i mentioned before now…i honestly don't know what I am doing on THIS particular platform and with THIS phone in my hand. My son, 😊💗 probably would be telling me, “Mom. You're awesome 😎👍 I could only imagine what you could do with more than a few more extra “brain cells”! " PLEASE don't take me wrong. I know that my Beautiful Boy loves me… even though he may not actually want to admit that I am his Mom . You see, i am an embarrassment to my family. I have been in a lot of trouble 😵‍💫😔 done a lot of real “Stupid things". BUT one thing I am NOT is …a “mistake”. I am a child of God. Yes. I have screwed up a lot. Made more than my share of wrong decisions… However, just hypothetically speaking… if God, my PaPa, were to ask me (being the spiritual being that i am whilst having a “human experience”) Would you on a scale of 1-10… 10 being the most likely or highly to do it all over again… would i? The answer would be Yes. Even though Life here is Not easy for most. AND that there is so much to be desired because “the system” IS flawed and corrupted as well as some of the people here. THIS wonderful wacky crazy World IS Awesome 😎👍. Sometimes you have to be a little looney to stay Sane in this Crazy World of ours.

I know that many of You are experiencing stressful situations 😔. I know that many of your burdens are making you weary. Shoulders hurt. Hearts heavy. Sometimes, there seems to be no one, and I mean “NO ONE”, who understands or can even comprehend what is happening to you or around you. Am i right? I am here to tell you, God can. I know that you maybe don't Believe in Him… .But I need to tell You… He Believes in YOU. If He didn't LOVE you or the other Life he created … it wouldn't exist. We wouldn't exist. He is and has been very patient with us. Merciful. Loving. Kind.

ALL the so-called crap happening in our world today… is Not His fault. It is because of disobedience. Our world and its inhabitants are being punished for human disobedience. We are choosing to destroy ourselves. We are choosing to Not heed God's warnings. We are choosing to select our rulers (those who elect to rule over us with intentions of making “Profit over People “). God, our Father ‘s gift to us is Life and Himself. His ultimate gift: Eternity with Him. Hell is man made. If you continue to choose to do 🙈🙉 🙊 by accepting EVIL and not God… .there will be consequences. And by choosing not to act… that still is a choice with not so nice results. Remember: God does know. He is always there… waiting. Willing. And wanting you to choose him.

PEACE 🕊️ and Blessings be with You today and Always.

In a world that is so weary, AND its people misunderstood…I look around to ask myself “Why” - Why cannot they separate “bad from good”?

I, myself, have trouble distinguishing those who truly would like to “get to know” me and those who feel that they're entitled to bend me over frontwards and backwards, taking from me all that they can and then with their arms crossed, toe tapping…clearing their throat loudly with, “Umm Hmmm ….”🤢🤮 Like WTF! YOU just basically have taken from me everything I have and now you expect me to smile 😁 and say ; “Thank You ☺️💕?” Yeah right. A snowball has a better chance in Hell not 🫠 melting.

I don't wannabe that kinda person, Y'all. In fact, that is what more often than not I deal with daily. I try going out of my way to see all there is in this world to be grateful for…because Believe it or not Ripley there Is sooo much more to Life than people realize.

I mean… okay, don't judge (much) be gentle…I love puppies. Walking along sandy beaches while holding hands. Skipping stones, causing ripples. The scent of flowers wafting in the air. I love magicians when they can create grand illusions of things that were gone…to suddenly reappear! On ice cream cones, I love the dripples of fudged goo…and my heart melts like buttery popcorn…when someone i care about hugs me closely…saying “Char, I Love you.”

I don't hear that too often.

Actually, not much anymore.

No one Ever sticks around.

There's Always guaranteed emptiness…when I hear the SLAMMING of the door.

After awhile, I hear the words verbatim ringing throughout my mind…"Keep being the fool, playing the part. Joke's on You…Forever the clown…with a broken heart 💔"….But by tomorrow there will be a smile that darns my face…and a song on my mind. And a “prayer” upon my lips, that I may find…a “connection” with another soul, who's Not afraid to LIVE Life and experience passionate Emotions.🙏

Your Loving BIG little Sis,

CharM.

Today, Sunday June 22nd 2025, at 7:51 p.m. Officer P. left my premises. Earlier I had called the F&M County Sheriff's Office because I had somebody cut my garden hose several times over and tied it into a huge knot. To say that I was upset, would be putting it mildly.

God I looked awful. He must have really thought I looked quite the sight when he arrived. I was talking on my phone with my sister, tears streamed down my face. The worse part was that my nose was running just as fast. Ugh Man…. How pathetic! I think any female who has had been abused or is being abused…You fucking DON'T want to “CRY”! especially in front of people who wear badges, carry guns, tazers, cuffs and…. Yes. I'll admit. I haven't had the best rapport with the law. In fact, I've been cuffed, questioned, patted and “held down / taken from behind “ more than I care to admit. So now when I see ”them” - the law, I revert to being a terrified child. It's sorta like how fucking Stephen King has made people traumatized with clowns! King “almost” single handedly, has helped make people terrified of them AND has made people want to kill them! What an idiot! I Love clowns. They were intended to relieve people of their burden not cause them horror or death.

“Mommie. May i please lay next to you? The Devil is after me again. I'm afraid of what he'll do.”

“Cheri. The Devil doesn't want children. He doesn't want minnows to fry. He's after Bigger Fish…like Daddy and I.”

“Mommie. I know what you're saying are words that are true. But he has already told me…that he’s caught both Daddy and you. Minnows are released into the Wild’s unknown. Where they “grown-up”, spawn, and birth offspring of their own….”

Generation after Generation

Of Women & Men

The crazy spawning cycle of deteriorating moral values into Toxic Wastelands of Sin: sulfuric sewage blackened sludge. When Man-n-Beast fuses together…Morphing as one. Slaves bound to Earth forged in Grudge. Spirits broken. Heads bow.

EVIL has won…

(for now)

Please Listen to me carefully. I know who and what I am. I know my purpose. I am a child of God. He IS my Creator. He is the Creator of Heaven and Earth and All things. He has Never created junk. He Created Us out of Love. And when We chose to “Disobey” Him and His plans for us ,…Yes. He was angered. And like any decent Loving Parent who wants the best for their children, we were held accountable for our actions and was disciplined. Now, you little rebellious boogers out there, who constantly continue to push around us offspring who are trying our best to live by God , our PaPa's Word, thinking that it's not only okay But You can & will get away with it 😉 Are in for a rude awakening.

I try telling others, who I honestly do believe are family, that God loves them. I know that many of you don't want to Believe it. Many of you have doubts because you have been beaten, abused, cheated, robbed, raped…or many other traumatic events or situations have taken place in your lifetime or someone that you Loved. I really am personally sorry for your loss. And I know that God , our Father is too.

Just to clarify things, so you can know where I stand. The name of “God” is what We Christian’s go by. I Can't tell you or list ALL of the other names He is referred to. Some Christian’s Believe that there is no other name for “God” other than “God”….I am Not your everyday “normal” Christian, 😔 i guess. You see, I truly believe that the relationship between God and His children Is truly unique. I sincerely Believe that He is known to us individually as He sees fit, meaning I don't really think that it's anyone else’s business to interfere between the relationship with you and our Creator.

I do not judge, least I be judged. I do not condem if I want mercy shown unto me. Specifically, Jesus gave us a command: “Love one another, as I have loved you.” Jesus who is “God the son”, Loved us unconditionally. He sacrificed his life on the cross, so that our sin debut would be paid. He did this so that if we accepted Him as our Lord and Savior and was willing to do as He asks of us, when we die…We will have Eternal Life with him forever.

Sorry, I do have problems limiting on what I should and not say. I am one of “those” blessed people who constantly am bombarded with ideas, thoughts, oohh voices , running amuck inside my brain 24/7 non stop.

My biggest fear Is my greatest love: You. Not just any one race. Religion. Gender. Sexual orientation. You. ALL of You. What Satan and his cohorts or followers don't want you to know…is that God, our Father, Is very very much invested in what is taking place, here and now. He Always has been and He Always will be, - because He genuinely Loves us. Remember: There are only 2 choices: Good and Evil. There's no in-between. If you are Luke warm, wishy washy, God will spit you out!

Have a Blessed Day.! 💕🙏

“ People's In Gov't (pigs) should not just be concerned with lining their own pocks…but in seeing to “…One Nation Under GOD, …Indivisible with LIBERTY and JUSTICE for ALL “.

I owe My allegiance to GOD. I do my best to Honor my God, my Father. What I believe that THIS Country is doing is not following its own Motto, Bill of Rights, Nor The American Constitution. Are WE really a Nation worthy of Respect by others or are We and have been just been “Pretending to be”…? Are We not ourselves little more than “Bullies”?

If you haven't noticed Parts of the Government has crossed the lines of the Constitution Bill of Rights between separation of Government and Religion. People have been doing that for a long time. YOU are forcing people to accept that We have to comply with Abortions, Transgendered people sharing same sex bathrooms, Sports, …I have nothing against people wanting to “be” who they feel or believe themselves to be…However, when you go against the rights of Religious Beliefs…You are not protecting Their Rights…You are basically hypocrites! Honestly I do Love ALL People. And I Believe that We are All in This Together…But under No circumstances can i or will I pledge My allegiance to a Country Divided. I serve my God…and do my best to Be me…whether you like it or Not!